This is very personal, but I don’t mind sharing if it helps or inspires someone out there reading this, just as reading blogs, forums, and watching vlogs of those facing similar struggles did before I embarked on my weight loss and mental wellness journey. It’s not pretty, and it’s going to be out there on the internet forever. And that’s okay with me. Because this is reality; the reality that so often isn’t shared in favour of having picture-picture white smiles and exotic locations for likes on social media. Nary a mention of depression and eating disorders is made, because the truth isn’t pretty. But you know what? Life isn’t pretty, but if you fight for health and wellness, you’ll be rewarded with a life that’s happier than you could have possibly imagined prior to dedicating the time and effort to yourself to get well, get healthy, and get back to living!
My mission is to be real. To show you the ups and downs of this all. I’m just a regular person trying my best in this journey called life. And if it helps inspire, then that’s my honour and privilege.
This is what depression versus wellness and health looks like. I felt very alone here in the scruffy pictures and was isolated, and of course piled on more weight during quarantine. I felt kind of like I didn’t belong on this island and took it harder than I should have. I’m someone who has always cared about looking presentable regardless of my size, but I stopped caring. I didn’t even brush my hair most days and hardly went out because I was ashamed of how I looked and how much weight I’d gained. The funny thing is, I was already a month into my weight loss journey when I took those two horrendous pictures. The other one was on my birthday. I still have a ways to go, but I’m miles from where I was. So please, if you’re having issues with depression and/or your weight, know that you’re not alone and there’s help out there. It’s not corny to say that at all. I’m not sharing this for asspats, but rather because seeing my former reality may mirror your present situation. And I want you to know that the nightmare can and WILL end.
December 7, 2021 – (My birthday!) – versus January 21, 2021 – One month into my weight loss journey; 10 months before my VSG. Total weight difference between the two is about 70 lbs.